I have an issue where I want to think I know what is better for me than God. I loved youth ministry, but did I really want to do it vocationally? In the same sense, I love art, but why was I so bored with it, and wanting so bad to go out and do other things? I have prayed and wondered and just generally lost sleep over it, and finally came to the conclusion I need to stop fighting God, and start fighting worldly desires. It became apparent within a few short weeks that I wasn't meant to pursue art here. Art was the constant thing in my life, that I knew I could do, and do fairly well, and that I thought would be easy to pursue and that I loved it, so I wanted to chase after it as a career. I came to Howard Payne University as an art major.
I just recently had to come into some significant changes in my life, and though I was skeptical at first, I know now that I made the right decision. Most people don't like change, myself included, but it isn't something we can just run away from. Change can be the best thing, and it can be the worst.
It is so difficult to accept, to grow into, and to love.